Turning Back Time

A fellow journaler (barebytes) recently posed the question: What one thing would you do differently if you could go back in time?

That is not a particularly hard question to answer, but one that is extremely emotional. I would have stayed married to my husband.

I met Steve when I was 17 years old and I knew almost immediately that he was the love of my life.

We were married on April 26th, 1969.  We were very young, I was 18 and he was 19, but we were in love!  Our son was born later that year, and soon thereafter we bought our first house.

We both worked full time and did quite well for ourselves.  My mom took care of Stevie, so he didn't have to go to daycare and enjoyed the best of both worlds.  He was always surrounded by someone who loved him!

We were married for about 7 years before we divorced, mostly because of immaturity - on both our parts. There wasn't another man or another woman for either of us. We both just wanted what we wanted when we wanted it. Plain and simple. Immature and childish.  Pathetic and heartbreaking.

Neither of us has remarried, and we only have the one child, Stephen, between us (and now our Granddaughter, Madison!).

I never remarried because there is no one that could take his place. There is no one that I would want to take his place. If I ever were to consider marriage again, it would only be to him. I guess I'm like a whale in that sense. I mate for life.

I have had many people over the years ask me why I don't try to rekindle the relationship. I don't know why, or at least I don't care to delve too deeply and think about it right now. Who knows? Perhaps one day we will.

I believe that everything happens for a reason. I also believe that if it's meant to be, it will.

Have a great weekend! J